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VRISKA
OK FIRST OFF I'M AWARE OF THE POINTLESSNESS AND BASE STUPIDITY OF TEXTING YOU RIGHT NOW
BUT I'M KIND OF AT A LOSS FOR WHAT ELSE TO DO AND NOT SAYING ANYTHING AT ALL FEELS
WRONG.
I MEAN, EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS SITUATION IS WRONG, IT IS NOT SIMPLY FUCKED UP, IT'S FUCKED DOWN, LEFT, RIGHT AND EVERY OTHER CONCEIVABLE DIRECTION AND THEN SOME THAT ARE TECHNICALLY IMPOSSIBLE
IT IS A HEINOUS, KNOTTED WEB OF FUCKERY ENSNARING AND CHOKING US ALL TO DEATH.
WELL.
EXCEPT FOR YOU.
FUCK.
THIS WAS AN AWFUL IDEA, WHAT THE HELL WAS I THINKING
I WASN'T THINKING. THIS WAS JUST ME CHARGING THOUGHTLESSLY INTO ANOTHER NEST OF WRETCHED, CRAWLING RETARDATION, YELLING AND WAVING MY ARMS AND RUNNING AROUND LIKE A HEADLESS FUCKING CLUCKBEAST.
I GUESS I JUST WANTED TO SAY
EVEN THOUGH IT IS LITERALLY THE MOST USELESS, WORTHLESS THING I COULD POSSIBLY UTTER IN THIS SITUATION
AND I DON'T EXPECT YOU TO ACCEPT IT
I WANTED TO TELL YOU I'M SORRY.
REALLY, REALLY SORRY.
AND THAT'S NOT GOING TO UNDO WHAT HAPPENED OR BRING YOU BACK, EVEN THOUGH YOU WILL BE COMING BACK.
AND THERE'S SOMETHING ELSE, TOO. I VEHEMENTLY AND VIOLENTLY DENY IT AT EVERY OPPORTUNITY
AND SOMETIMES I MEANT IT WHEN I DID BUT I ALSO THINK I SHOULD TELL YOU
YOU ARE MY FRIEND.
A HORRIBLE, AGGRAVATING, FLAP CHAFING FRIEND WHO MAKES ME WANT TO SCREAM UNTIL MY OXYGEN SACS DISINTEGRATE AND I VOMIT UP MY OWN NOISEBOX.
AND I'M SORRY THAT IT WAS MY FUCKUP THAT GOT YOU KILLED.
IT'S KIND OF A RUNNING THEME WITH MY FRIENDSHIP.
AND IF YOU DON'T WANT THAT TO CONTINUE BEING A THING I'LL UNDERSTAND.
SO YEAH.
THAT'S IT I GUESS.
I'M GOING TO GO NOW BEFORE I EMBARRASS MYSELF ANY MORE VIGOROUSLY THAN I ALREADY HAVE.
SEE YOU.
OK FIRST OFF I'M AWARE OF THE POINTLESSNESS AND BASE STUPIDITY OF TEXTING YOU RIGHT NOW
BUT I'M KIND OF AT A LOSS FOR WHAT ELSE TO DO AND NOT SAYING ANYTHING AT ALL FEELS
WRONG.
I MEAN, EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS SITUATION IS WRONG, IT IS NOT SIMPLY FUCKED UP, IT'S FUCKED DOWN, LEFT, RIGHT AND EVERY OTHER CONCEIVABLE DIRECTION AND THEN SOME THAT ARE TECHNICALLY IMPOSSIBLE
IT IS A HEINOUS, KNOTTED WEB OF FUCKERY ENSNARING AND CHOKING US ALL TO DEATH.
WELL.
EXCEPT FOR YOU.
FUCK.
THIS WAS AN AWFUL IDEA, WHAT THE HELL WAS I THINKING
I WASN'T THINKING. THIS WAS JUST ME CHARGING THOUGHTLESSLY INTO ANOTHER NEST OF WRETCHED, CRAWLING RETARDATION, YELLING AND WAVING MY ARMS AND RUNNING AROUND LIKE A HEADLESS FUCKING CLUCKBEAST.
I GUESS I JUST WANTED TO SAY
EVEN THOUGH IT IS LITERALLY THE MOST USELESS, WORTHLESS THING I COULD POSSIBLY UTTER IN THIS SITUATION
AND I DON'T EXPECT YOU TO ACCEPT IT
I WANTED TO TELL YOU I'M SORRY.
REALLY, REALLY SORRY.
AND THAT'S NOT GOING TO UNDO WHAT HAPPENED OR BRING YOU BACK, EVEN THOUGH YOU WILL BE COMING BACK.
AND THERE'S SOMETHING ELSE, TOO. I VEHEMENTLY AND VIOLENTLY DENY IT AT EVERY OPPORTUNITY
AND SOMETIMES I MEANT IT WHEN I DID BUT I ALSO THINK I SHOULD TELL YOU
YOU ARE MY FRIEND.
A HORRIBLE, AGGRAVATING, FLAP CHAFING FRIEND WHO MAKES ME WANT TO SCREAM UNTIL MY OXYGEN SACS DISINTEGRATE AND I VOMIT UP MY OWN NOISEBOX.
AND I'M SORRY THAT IT WAS MY FUCKUP THAT GOT YOU KILLED.
IT'S KIND OF A RUNNING THEME WITH MY FRIENDSHIP.
AND IF YOU DON'T WANT THAT TO CONTINUE BEING A THING I'LL UNDERSTAND.
SO YEAH.
THAT'S IT I GUESS.
I'M GOING TO GO NOW BEFORE I EMBARRASS MYSELF ANY MORE VIGOROUSLY THAN I ALREADY HAVE.
SEE YOU.
Jeez, Vantas, did you have to leave me a novel to come 8ack to?
And what's worse is it's not even a good novel. I don't even have to read it to know it's pro8a8ly some huge self-loathing pity party for yourself.
I don't need you to apologize for me dying, just so it'll make you feel 8etter. It wasn't your stupid fault.
Why do you have to think that everything is your fault and spend your dum8 existence 8laming yourself for it?
Sometimes shit happens, and surprise!!!!!!!! It isn't your fault.
It's some8ody else's. Like some8ody who made crappy apparitions appear that could kill people.
Did you think it would 8e different if I hadn't run into you? If I had kept flying around carrying Nill that I wouldn't have gotten exhausted? That it might, I don't know, happened anyway when I would finally need to land?
Do you think it would have 8een 8etter if you'd died instead???????? What a8out Nill?
What a8out ALL of us? Is that wh8t yo8 w8nted?
Just fucking stop, OK. It's not the first time I've made a gam8le that I lost. I knew the stakes from the start.
Coming 8ack for you was my decision, not yours. So don't act like it was such a 8ig pro8lem for me 8ecause I wanted to save a friend.
And what's worse is it's not even a good novel. I don't even have to read it to know it's pro8a8ly some huge self-loathing pity party for yourself.
I don't need you to apologize for me dying, just so it'll make you feel 8etter. It wasn't your stupid fault.
Why do you have to think that everything is your fault and spend your dum8 existence 8laming yourself for it?
Sometimes shit happens, and surprise!!!!!!!! It isn't your fault.
It's some8ody else's. Like some8ody who made crappy apparitions appear that could kill people.
Did you think it would 8e different if I hadn't run into you? If I had kept flying around carrying Nill that I wouldn't have gotten exhausted? That it might, I don't know, happened anyway when I would finally need to land?
Do you think it would have 8een 8etter if you'd died instead???????? What a8out Nill?
What a8out ALL of us? Is that wh8t yo8 w8nted?
Just fucking stop, OK. It's not the first time I've made a gam8le that I lost. I knew the stakes from the start.
Coming 8ack for you was my decision, not yours. So don't act like it was such a 8ig pro8lem for me 8ecause I wanted to save a friend.
Edited 2012-08-27 04:06 (UTC)
VRISKA!!!!
FIRST OF ALL, FUCK YOU. SECOND OF ALL, FUCK YOU. THIRD OF ALL, FUCK YOU SIDEWAYS UP THE NOOK WITH A RUSTY CULLING FORK.
I DON'T KNOW WHAT WOULD HAVE BEEN DIFFERENT! ALL I KNOW IS I CALLED YOUR NAME, YOU CAME BACK FOR ME, AND YOU DIED FOR IT.
I WATCHED YOU DIE.
MAYBE NOTHING WOULD HAVE CHANGED IF I'D RUN IN ANY OTHER DIRECTION OR KEPT MY STUPID MOUTH SHUT
BUT MAYBE SOMETHING WOULD HAVE.
MAYBE ALL THREE OF US COULD HAVE MADE IT OUT ALIVE! WHAT A THOUGHT.
IS IT REALLY SO MUCH TO ASK THAT NO ONE DIE?????? DO YOU ALL GET OFF ON IT OR SOMETHING, DO YOU DERIVE A SICK PLEASURE FROM GETTING YOURSELVES KILLED IN THE WORST WAYS POSSIBLE?
WHATEVER.
REMIND ME NOT TO GIVE A SHIT NEXT TIME YOU DIE.
FIRST OF ALL, FUCK YOU. SECOND OF ALL, FUCK YOU. THIRD OF ALL, FUCK YOU SIDEWAYS UP THE NOOK WITH A RUSTY CULLING FORK.
I DON'T KNOW WHAT WOULD HAVE BEEN DIFFERENT! ALL I KNOW IS I CALLED YOUR NAME, YOU CAME BACK FOR ME, AND YOU DIED FOR IT.
I WATCHED YOU DIE.
MAYBE NOTHING WOULD HAVE CHANGED IF I'D RUN IN ANY OTHER DIRECTION OR KEPT MY STUPID MOUTH SHUT
BUT MAYBE SOMETHING WOULD HAVE.
MAYBE ALL THREE OF US COULD HAVE MADE IT OUT ALIVE! WHAT A THOUGHT.
IS IT REALLY SO MUCH TO ASK THAT NO ONE DIE?????? DO YOU ALL GET OFF ON IT OR SOMETHING, DO YOU DERIVE A SICK PLEASURE FROM GETTING YOURSELVES KILLED IN THE WORST WAYS POSSIBLE?
WHATEVER.
REMIND ME NOT TO GIVE A SHIT NEXT TIME YOU DIE.
May8e I don't want to fucking talk a8out how I got myself killed again!!!!!!!!
May8e I was hoping you'd just 8e gr8ful you made it out alive!
May8es means a8solutely fuck all, anyway. No amount of what ifs is going to change what happened.
Or do you want me to get caught up in what ifs? What if I hadn't somehow conjured up my stupid lusus. What if I had left you 8ehind and then found out you died and had to think a8out how I could have gone 8ack and saved you?
Do you really think that I woke up and decided, 'Oh, I don't think I'm dead enough yet from my own stupidity, I think I'll get myself eaten 8y my lusus. That seems like a gr8 way to go'?
No8ody wants to die, idiot, least of all me! 8ut sometimes there are things that are more important that make them want to risk it, regardless of the consequences.
I went 8ack to save you and I did, that's all. So try to stop raining on my accomplishment.
May8e I was hoping you'd just 8e gr8ful you made it out alive!
May8es means a8solutely fuck all, anyway. No amount of what ifs is going to change what happened.
Or do you want me to get caught up in what ifs? What if I hadn't somehow conjured up my stupid lusus. What if I had left you 8ehind and then found out you died and had to think a8out how I could have gone 8ack and saved you?
Do you really think that I woke up and decided, 'Oh, I don't think I'm dead enough yet from my own stupidity, I think I'll get myself eaten 8y my lusus. That seems like a gr8 way to go'?
No8ody wants to die, idiot, least of all me! 8ut sometimes there are things that are more important that make them want to risk it, regardless of the consequences.
I went 8ack to save you and I did, that's all. So try to stop raining on my accomplishment.
Didn't want me to? May8e.
Didn't need me to? Hoof8east shit.
Look, it happened. It was my choice to save your sorry ass that can't even even 8e thankful he's still alive.
Can you 8e gr8ful for once in your misera8le life that your friends actually have your 8ack?
Didn't need me to? Hoof8east shit.
Look, it happened. It was my choice to save your sorry ass that can't even even 8e thankful he's still alive.
Can you 8e gr8ful for once in your misera8le life that your friends actually have your 8ack?
I AM GRATEFUL.
OK, I AM HELLS OF GRATEFUL.
I DON'T WANT TO DIE. I ADMIT IT! LO AND BEHOLD, KARKAT VANTAS IS AFRAID OF DEATH.
AND I'M GLAD I DIDN'T DIE.
THANK YOU FOR SAVING MY LIFE VRISKA! I REALLY APPRECIATE IT.
WHAT PISSES ME OFF IS YOU SEEM TO THINK IT'S OK THAT *YOU* DIED.
IF HAVING MY BACK MEANS MY FRIENDS LEAVE THEIRS OPEN AND UNGUARDED FOR THE UNMITIGATED MANGLING THEN NO, I CAN'T BE GRATEFUL FOR THAT.
OK, I AM HELLS OF GRATEFUL.
I DON'T WANT TO DIE. I ADMIT IT! LO AND BEHOLD, KARKAT VANTAS IS AFRAID OF DEATH.
AND I'M GLAD I DIDN'T DIE.
THANK YOU FOR SAVING MY LIFE VRISKA! I REALLY APPRECIATE IT.
WHAT PISSES ME OFF IS YOU SEEM TO THINK IT'S OK THAT *YOU* DIED.
IF HAVING MY BACK MEANS MY FRIENDS LEAVE THEIRS OPEN AND UNGUARDED FOR THE UNMITIGATED MANGLING THEN NO, I CAN'T BE GRATEFUL FOR THAT.
When did I ever say it was OK that I died?
I'm trying to get you to not undermine the whole thing with your shitty pity party to the point that it meant nothing to any8ody.
If I'm gonna die, I don't want it to 8e meaningless. I want to know I went out with a 8ang, doing some RIGHT for once.
I didn't want to die, if that wasn't o8vious. It wasn't exactly on my agenda, and neither were the consequences of it.
8ut do I regret it?
Keep this shit up and I might. ::::/
I'm trying to get you to not undermine the whole thing with your shitty pity party to the point that it meant nothing to any8ody.
If I'm gonna die, I don't want it to 8e meaningless. I want to know I went out with a 8ang, doing some RIGHT for once.
I didn't want to die, if that wasn't o8vious. It wasn't exactly on my agenda, and neither were the consequences of it.
8ut do I regret it?
Keep this shit up and I might. ::::/
IT'S NOT A PITY PARTY, YOU SHIT
IF ANYTHING YOU SHOULD HATE ME
BUT THAT ISN'T THE POINT.
YOUR DEATH WASN'T MEANINGLESS. IT WAS AS HEROIC AS DEATHS GET. CONGRATULATIONS. YOU WENT OUT WITH A "BANG"!!!!
BUT IT WAS STILL A DEATH.
AND I APOLOGIZE DEEPLY FOR OH, BEING A LITTLE PERTURBED BY THAT FACT.
MAYBE EVEN MOURNING A FRACTION!!!!!
DON'T WORRY THOUGH, I'LL RETRACT ANY AND ALL CARING I MAY HAVE DONE IN REGARD TO YOUR GRUESOME DEMISE.
BYE BYE CARES!!! WE WON'T BE SEEING THOSE AGAIN.
IF ANYTHING YOU SHOULD HATE ME
BUT THAT ISN'T THE POINT.
YOUR DEATH WASN'T MEANINGLESS. IT WAS AS HEROIC AS DEATHS GET. CONGRATULATIONS. YOU WENT OUT WITH A "BANG"!!!!
BUT IT WAS STILL A DEATH.
AND I APOLOGIZE DEEPLY FOR OH, BEING A LITTLE PERTURBED BY THAT FACT.
MAYBE EVEN MOURNING A FRACTION!!!!!
DON'T WORRY THOUGH, I'LL RETRACT ANY AND ALL CARING I MAY HAVE DONE IN REGARD TO YOUR GRUESOME DEMISE.
BYE BYE CARES!!! WE WON'T BE SEEING THOSE AGAIN.
Edited 2012-08-27 06:45 (UTC)
[Heroic death but it's too late. Just her luck.]
St8p!!!!!!!!
I have no idea what the hell you're expecting me to say. You keep apologizing like it's your fault 8ut it isn't.
What do you want? Do you want me to 8e pissed off, Karkat?
8ecause I am. I'm angry and I'm tired and I'm in a weak human 8ody and it sucks. I died and got crammed into yet another 8ody I didn't want. 8ut it's not you I'm mad at. It's whoever dragged me on the 8us thing in the first place.
8ut fine. Will accepting your completely stupid and unwarranted apology get you off my 8ack?
St8p!!!!!!!!
I have no idea what the hell you're expecting me to say. You keep apologizing like it's your fault 8ut it isn't.
What do you want? Do you want me to 8e pissed off, Karkat?
8ecause I am. I'm angry and I'm tired and I'm in a weak human 8ody and it sucks. I died and got crammed into yet another 8ody I didn't want. 8ut it's not you I'm mad at. It's whoever dragged me on the 8us thing in the first place.
8ut fine. Will accepting your completely stupid and unwarranted apology get you off my 8ack?
I DON'T KNOW.
YEAH.
IT WILL.
YOU KNOW WHAT, YOU DON'T EVEN HAVE TO.
I DON'T KNOW WHY I EVEN MESSAGED YOU WITH THIS CRAP, IT'S ALL POINTLESS IN THE GRAND SCHEME OF THINGS. IT DOESN'T MATTER.
I JUST
IT SUCKED THAT YOU HAD TO DIE, OK.
[ it's really hard to show concern for a friend!! ]
YOU'RE RIGHT.
SOMEONE DID DRAG US ONTO THAT BUS, AND SOMEONE PUT US THROUGH THE THRESHER.
AND THAT SOMEONE CAN'T BE ALLOWED TO DO THAT AGAIN.
YEAH.
IT WILL.
YOU KNOW WHAT, YOU DON'T EVEN HAVE TO.
I DON'T KNOW WHY I EVEN MESSAGED YOU WITH THIS CRAP, IT'S ALL POINTLESS IN THE GRAND SCHEME OF THINGS. IT DOESN'T MATTER.
I JUST
IT SUCKED THAT YOU HAD TO DIE, OK.
[ it's really hard to show concern for a friend!! ]
YOU'RE RIGHT.
SOMEONE DID DRAG US ONTO THAT BUS, AND SOMEONE PUT US THROUGH THE THRESHER.
AND THAT SOMEONE CAN'T BE ALLOWED TO DO THAT AGAIN.
[She appreciates it, she just doesn't know how to show it. It's hard being tough.]
Yeah, I know it sucked. I was there, remem8er?
I guess it sucks you had to see it, 8ut I can't 8elieve you told every8ody a8out it. What the hell is wrong with you?
[She went back and read the network bro :|]
Anyway, do you have any idea who did it?
In the same vein, got any ideas on what to do a8out it, fearless leader? ::::/
Yeah, I know it sucked. I was there, remem8er?
I guess it sucks you had to see it, 8ut I can't 8elieve you told every8ody a8out it. What the hell is wrong with you?
[She went back and read the network bro :|]
Anyway, do you have any idea who did it?
In the same vein, got any ideas on what to do a8out it, fearless leader? ::::/
I DIDN'T JUST SEE IT, VRISKA.
I FUCKING FELT IT. EVERYTHING YOU FELT, I FELT.
SURPRISE! THAT WAS THE GRUBSHIT POWER LACHESIS DECIDED TO GRANT ME.
IT MAY AS WELL HAVE HAPPENED TO ME AS WELL, MINUS THE PART WHERE YOU DIED.
AND I TOLD EVERYONE BECAUSE THEY DESERVED TO KNOW.
IT'S NOT ALL ABOUT YOU.
I THOUGHT YOU *WANTED* EVERYONE TO THINK YOU WERE SOME STUPID HERO, WASN'T THAT THE EXCREMENT YOU WERE SPOUTING LIKE TEN SECONDS AGO????
THERE ISN'T ANYTHING SOLID, YET. EVERYONE IS RUNNING AROUND SCREAMING VULCANUS, BUT I'M MORE SUSPICIOUS OF LACHESIS.
SHE'S THE ONLY ONE WE KNOW WITH THE POWER TO TRANSPORT US ACROSS DIMENSIONS LIKE THAT.
I FUCKING FELT IT. EVERYTHING YOU FELT, I FELT.
SURPRISE! THAT WAS THE GRUBSHIT POWER LACHESIS DECIDED TO GRANT ME.
IT MAY AS WELL HAVE HAPPENED TO ME AS WELL, MINUS THE PART WHERE YOU DIED.
AND I TOLD EVERYONE BECAUSE THEY DESERVED TO KNOW.
IT'S NOT ALL ABOUT YOU.
I THOUGHT YOU *WANTED* EVERYONE TO THINK YOU WERE SOME STUPID HERO, WASN'T THAT THE EXCREMENT YOU WERE SPOUTING LIKE TEN SECONDS AGO????
THERE ISN'T ANYTHING SOLID, YET. EVERYONE IS RUNNING AROUND SCREAMING VULCANUS, BUT I'M MORE SUSPICIOUS OF LACHESIS.
SHE'S THE ONLY ONE WE KNOW WITH THE POWER TO TRANSPORT US ACROSS DIMENSIONS LIKE THAT.
[Oh good, her friend not only saw her being a pathetic scared wriggler, he also got to feel how strong her fear was. Awesome. Super awesdskjahakj she feels like throwing her communicator across the room.
Probably does actually, judging by how long it takes her to respond.]
You're an empath?
You've got to 8e fucking kidding me. That's just gr8.
I just said I wanted my death to mean something, not have it recognized 8y every8ody. I don't even know half the people here, 8ut now every8ody knows a8out Vriska Serket the pathetic little troll that died.
Lachesis, Vulanus, I don't give a shit who did it. Make them 8oth pay if we have to.
Probably does actually, judging by how long it takes her to respond.]
You're an empath?
You've got to 8e fucking kidding me. That's just gr8.
I just said I wanted my death to mean something, not have it recognized 8y every8ody. I don't even know half the people here, 8ut now every8ody knows a8out Vriska Serket the pathetic little troll that died.
Lachesis, Vulanus, I don't give a shit who did it. Make them 8oth pay if we have to.
YES, I AM AN EMPATH, AND YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW DEEPLY I WISH I WERE KIDDING.
IT IS THE WORST "POWER" IN EXISTENCE AND IT MAKES ME WANT TO RIP MY OWN LOBE STEM OUT AND CONSUME IT.
LOOK IF I KNEW SPECIFICALLY WHO YOU HAD TIES WITH HERE I COULD HAVE MADE A FILTER BUT I FIGURED IT WOULDN'T BE WORTH TAKING ANY CHANCES.
EVERYONE KNOWS ABOUT VRISKA SERKET THE INSUFFERABLE JACKASS WHO SAVED TWO LIVES AT THE COST OF HER OWN.
AND IT'S NOT THAT SIMPLE
WE CAN'T JUST BOLT IN AND "MAKE THEM PAY"
WE'VE ALREADY SUFFERED WHAT THEY'RE CAPABLE OF, DO YOU WANT TO GET SENT BACK TO THAT SHITHOLE????
WE HAVE TO THINK ABOUT THIS. GATHER INFORMATION.
IT IS THE WORST "POWER" IN EXISTENCE AND IT MAKES ME WANT TO RIP MY OWN LOBE STEM OUT AND CONSUME IT.
LOOK IF I KNEW SPECIFICALLY WHO YOU HAD TIES WITH HERE I COULD HAVE MADE A FILTER BUT I FIGURED IT WOULDN'T BE WORTH TAKING ANY CHANCES.
EVERYONE KNOWS ABOUT VRISKA SERKET THE INSUFFERABLE JACKASS WHO SAVED TWO LIVES AT THE COST OF HER OWN.
AND IT'S NOT THAT SIMPLE
WE CAN'T JUST BOLT IN AND "MAKE THEM PAY"
WE'VE ALREADY SUFFERED WHAT THEY'RE CAPABLE OF, DO YOU WANT TO GET SENT BACK TO THAT SHITHOLE????
WE HAVE TO THINK ABOUT THIS. GATHER INFORMATION.
No, I have a pretty good idea. Empathy fucking sucks.
8ut whatever, fine. No8ody needed to know 8ut it's too l8 to take it 8ack now anyway.
And I didn't say immedi8ly. 8ut they're going to pay at some point.
They can't just get away with 8ullshit like that.
8ut whatever, fine. No8ody needed to know 8ut it's too l8 to take it 8ack now anyway.
And I didn't say immedi8ly. 8ut they're going to pay at some point.
They can't just get away with 8ullshit like that.
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